"All the love still there, I just don't know what to do with it now"

Mayday Parade, one of my favorite bands, released the official video for their song (which is one of my favorite songs from them). Here is the video:

Stay - Mayday Parade

I like the video. 

Derek Sanders (lead vocals) looks awesome and hot in that suit! haha. 

I thought the video was simple yet it brought me to tears. I felt the emotion, that feeling when you're in the moment of almost losing someone. It's painful. It's like you were place in a blackhole, slowly reaping your being apart. It's painful really.

"Stay", there's someone who I would love to say that word, but I just can't. It's hard to say it when you know he'll just break you into pieces all over again. Raising your hope for someone, sometimes can do damage to you as a person. 

Here is the lyrics to the song:

"Stay" 

by Mayday Parade

I need some time just deliver the things that I need for now
Everything that I feel's like a warm deep calm casting over me
And it's taking me to somewhere new

If you believe that everything's alright
You won't be all alone tonight
And I'd be blessed by the light of your company,
Slowly lifting me to somewhere new

Oh can you tell, I haven't slept very well
Since the last time that we spoke, you said
"Please understand if I see you again don't even say hello."

Please

What a night it is, when you live like this
And you're coming up beneath the clouds,
Don't let me down
All the love's still there I just don't know what to do with it now
You know, I still can't believe we both did some things
I don't even wanna think about
Just say you love me and I'll say "I'm sorry,
I don't want anybody else to feel this way"
No, no, no

Oh can you tell, I haven't slept very well
Since the last time that we spoke, I said
"Please understand I've been drinking again, and all I do is hope"

Please... stay
Please stay

I'll admit I was wrong about everything
Cause I'm high and I don't wanna come down
All the fun that we had on your mothers couch,
I don't even wanna think about

I'm not strong enough for the both of us
What was I supposed to do
You know I love you
Whoa-oh

Please just stay
Stay

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xoxo

e.

Endings and New Beginnings

So much for hiatus, I'm finally back! It's been ages since the last time I visited and updated my blogger account. Thanks to a more stable internet connection, I'm alive and kicking once again.

So for my comeback post, 

So much had ended this past few days. For a start, I am finally a College Graduate! Yes! After years and years of waking up early in the morning and then end up sleeping in the morning as well, everything has finally paid of. Last April 2, 2012 at SEAMEO Innotech, I, together with my colleagues, finally earned the fruit of all of our hard-work, our College Diploma. It felt surreal. Waiting in line, marching with your parent (my dad was with me) beside you, and stepping on that stage to finally receive your diploma. It was great. And to think that you also get to bag some special awards, that moment was priceless. My life as a student has finally ended. Despite all the rants like "school sucks! i hate school!" I will surely miss it. My friends. My professors. I will truly miss you guys. I hope we can meet again sometime. 


One chapter of my life ended, and a new chapter began. I would now be facing the professional world. I don't know what's up for me outside this shell I have lived for more than two decades. Then again, just like that old saying, "it's for Him to know, and for me to find out." So good luck to me in finding that out. 

Now, for the saddest ending that happened this year. A call woke me up this morning. My cousin call and told us that his little brother died just this morning. He died due to cancer. He's just 11 years old, and he didn't even got the chance to celebrate his 12th birthday this coming Saturday, April 7, 2012. It was so heartbreaking that even though I want to celebrate my graduation, I just can't. It just doesn't feel right to do so. Despite his death, I know, we know that he's at peace now, and he is with Him now, looking for his loved ones. I just hope that this would be an eye-opener for everyone in our family, especially for his father. So, for everyone, show your loved ones how much you love them, for our time in this world is just borrowed. We never know when will it be "time's up" for us. 


I would end this post with a quote from a book I just read. It's title is Destined, book 2 from the Dream Realm Trilogy.

"Fate lays our lives before us, and all we do is traverse the course as best we can"

- Alexander, Destined (book 2 of Dream Realm trilogy)

xoxo

e.